Fandom Goals 2024
Jan. 10th, 2024 10:49 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
crowtoesNew year, new me? Or at least more well-adjusted me, ideally.
Goal One: Write fic. I posted zero new stories in 2022, and the only story I finished in 2023 felt like pulling teeth with no anesthetic and still leaves me with a weird, guilty queasiness over its quality even now, several months later. It's not that I no longer have fannish passion, either; Mob and Reigen are still very dear to my heart and I still spend a significant chunk of my time fantasizing about them. But this is the longest I have ever stuck with a pseud and the most fic I have ever written for one canon (in my runner-up fandom, I posted...two stories. yeah), and I think that as a result of that I have gotten wayyy too deep in my own head over what I produce and what the potential audience reaction to it will be. "The mortifying ordeal of being known" may be a cliché, but mortifying really is the best word for it. And I firmly believe that fandom should be fun! Stories where I make my blorbos kiss should not inspire stomach-churning shame! So, this year I want to do my best to crawl out of my self-sabotaging anxietyblob pit and just...have fun with writing again. I want to put words on the page without the looming specter of Being Perceived glaring over my shoulder and sucking all the joy out of things. I want to play. No expectations beyond making something self-indulgent, something that I would like to exist.
Goal Two: Run another fandom event. Maybe this will finally be the year I get the Spring of Youth event off the ground! (It's a conspiracy from the universe itself that some of my busiest work weeks of the year align perfectly with Mob's birthday, which is when I'd like to run it.) I also want to host an mp100 fandom love meme, maybe around Valentine's Day.
Goal Three: Use dreamwidth more consistently. Or at least more often. And also get better at HTML because I've had to edit this post about five times now to make it look like I want.
Goal Four: Make something physical. A tapestry crochet project, a mixed-media collage zine, an embroidery piece. Basically anything MP100-related that I can not only look at but physically hold or touch.
Goal One: Write fic. I posted zero new stories in 2022, and the only story I finished in 2023 felt like pulling teeth with no anesthetic and still leaves me with a weird, guilty queasiness over its quality even now, several months later. It's not that I no longer have fannish passion, either; Mob and Reigen are still very dear to my heart and I still spend a significant chunk of my time fantasizing about them. But this is the longest I have ever stuck with a pseud and the most fic I have ever written for one canon (in my runner-up fandom, I posted...two stories. yeah), and I think that as a result of that I have gotten wayyy too deep in my own head over what I produce and what the potential audience reaction to it will be. "The mortifying ordeal of being known" may be a cliché, but mortifying really is the best word for it. And I firmly believe that fandom should be fun! Stories where I make my blorbos kiss should not inspire stomach-churning shame! So, this year I want to do my best to crawl out of my self-sabotaging anxietyblob pit and just...have fun with writing again. I want to put words on the page without the looming specter of Being Perceived glaring over my shoulder and sucking all the joy out of things. I want to play. No expectations beyond making something self-indulgent, something that I would like to exist.
Sub-goal One A: Post fic, but without expectations. At any step of the process. I want to not only steer myself away from thinking of other people's reactions while I write, but also try not to focus so much on what my brain has somehow convinced itself is the deeply serious, morally-fraught act of Publicly Posting A Fanwork itself. This is me giving myself permission to be anonymous, to use socks, to keep things on obscure dw comms and off ao3 entirely if I feel like it. Again, the goal is to play.
Sub-goal One B: Meet my GYWO goal. This one takes lower priority because of the aforementioned desperation to keep pressure off myself, but it would be nice.
Goal Two: Run another fandom event. Maybe this will finally be the year I get the Spring of Youth event off the ground! (It's a conspiracy from the universe itself that some of my busiest work weeks of the year align perfectly with Mob's birthday, which is when I'd like to run it.) I also want to host an mp100 fandom love meme, maybe around Valentine's Day.
Goal Three: Use dreamwidth more consistently. Or at least more often. And also get better at HTML because I've had to edit this post about five times now to make it look like I want.
Goal Four: Make something physical. A tapestry crochet project, a mixed-media collage zine, an embroidery piece. Basically anything MP100-related that I can not only look at but physically hold or touch.
